Honesty Days

Thanks to the world wide web we get to see how awesome other parents are. Parents who just ooze amazing parenting skills. Who have little angels who smile at the camera and can do wonderful genius kid things.  Pinterest shows us how crafty our counterpart moms are. The ones who make every day magical and amazing. The ones who make wonderful cute lunches with smiley faces, love notes and the perfect baked goods. I have wonderful board on Pinterest that show how wonderful I wish I could be. I can “pin” just as well as anyone else. I love the things I see and I “pin” with the best of intentions, though they rarely get done.

Now let’s get honest. Some days I spend too much time on the computer and not enough time with the kids. I make learning plans and playdates and then we go out and do things. Though some days I just want to be left alone in my little online world. Some days I feel crappy about those days because, well I often see how awesome other moms are, via their posts. They have clean houses, wonderful dinners and happy children. Heck they maybe even went to the gym.

You know what I have? Dust bunnies hiding under beds, dirty floors (that need to be vacuumed and washed), laundry piles at every stage of laundry. A load of diapers to do, bathrooms that need to be cleaned (because boys pee everywhere, even when they try and aim it somehow gets everywhere) Dished to be done. Dinners to make and plan. I still have boxes to unpack from when we moved a year ago. (I honestly just want to throw them out some days) Learning plans that still need to be written, budgets to write, field trips to plan. Financial reviews to do and oh so much more that I’m not even thinking about right now.

I don’t know how I’m going to get it all done but the first step is often getting off the computer.(except for the few things that have to be done on the computer) Time to clean the house which often seems pointless, as I live with little tasmanian devils who seem to leave a flurry of stuff behind them. I’m tired but I keep going. I wont be a perfect mom but I’m going to be the best one I can be and hopefully that will be enough for today.


Where did we go wrong?

We live in world that is honestly all mixed up. Values and morals are things of the past. Your word means nothing any more. Often people worry about walking down the street someday for fear of getting attacked.

Where did we go wrong?

We are more concerned about a young ladies dance moves than we are about declaring chemical warfare. We tell our young women what to wear but don’t tell our young men not to rape. Simply because it’s a primal urge and he can’t help himself.

Where did we go wrong?

We talk about removing science from our schools. When we are already removing arts and music. While religion has it’s place. If we are to have freedom of religion it should not be being preached in schools that is for the family to decide.

Where did we go wrong?

We cry about other countries and the travesty that they commit in their own but we are afraid to go into our back yard. We refuse to look at our neighbours who are starving and have no job, because our economy shot.

Where did we go wrong?

We could feed the hungry. we have support systems but instead of helping other we help our bank account. There is profit in someone elses pain

Where did we go wrong?

Every day I see the news and I wonder what has happened to the human spirit? Some days I wonder if the light of goodness has gone out? Where did we go wrong? We stopped treating each other as neighbour friends and family. We started worrying more about the money in the bank and the toys in the garage. We were too busy keeping up with the Jones’ that we forgot to smile and get to know them.

We need to stop we need to take 100 steps back. We need to care, support and lift up each other. Right now we are killing each other and killing our future. We need more random acts of kindness. we need more love. we need to get to know our neighbours again with understanding and trust.

Can we do it?

Happy birthday to me

Well it’s my birthday today and well…. I can whine If I want to. I don’t really have much to whine about mostly just about a few things that I would love but I know are just simply not going to happen.

I’m not a big things person. I really only have one collection and I love it with all my heart because each piece means something special. My lovely hubby got me three new pieces to represent me and our three boys. Each of the boys made me a card this morning and they all greeted me in bed with presents and love. What more could a mom ask for. Really not much else.

the front three

I’m happy with my life. I wasn’t looking for some wonder extravagant gift. This was actually more than what I was expecting which is always nice.

There are just a few things I wish could happen as well today.

  • Have an uninterrupted shower. Which means from the moment I turn on the water till I am dressed again that no one whines, cries or asks for food.
  • Have a friend stop by with a drink or something to visit me. I like to see people, I pretty much think my friends are awesome, and it would be nice to see them.
  • My phone to ring. Like actually ring, with a voice on the other end. While Facebook love and text messages are awesome, a personal connection is great. ( i’m guilty of sometimes not calling people but I usually try to)
  • My hubby to organize a dinner date on his own. Meaning he calls the babysitter, sets it up, takes some time off and makes me feel a little extra special. ( I’m a pregnant hormonal mess sometimes it’s nice to feel special )

That’s pretty much it’s. That’s my birthday wish list. Sure I could go all materialistic, but most things with that are not really for me exactly they are things I would like for the baby.  Like a pretty new wrap or something like that, but that is even less likely to happen.

What’s on your mommy birthday wish list?

Food, Clothes and Finally Some Weight

I figure it has been a bit since my last pregnancy update. I’ll let you in on a few things that are going on around here. I’m starting to feel human again, well as human as one can feel when growing a life knowing that someone else is living in you, some days sucking your very life-force. Honestly some days my belly looks like some out of the Alien movies with all the moving and shifting.  Hey that means the baby is growing a moving though so it’s a good thing that I just have to live with …. again. But hey I can eat and get around and some days I’m even adventurous enough to leave my house with my children. ( yeah me!)

I can eat eggs again. Don’t be too proud this was Damian’s plate mine was half the size

With feeling better I’m starting to eat better too! Two weeks ago on our camping trip the two little ones and I both came down with a lovely little intestinal virus. Not awesome but that is a whole other story that I should get around to writing. 😉 Though since I have recovered from that ( which took about 4 days) I seem to be able to eat a bit more. Which is good, seeing as the boys clap and rewards me with thumbs up and pats on the back when I finish a dinner smaller than the toddlers plate. *shame* Yeah they all out eat me now and I’m supposed to be supporting another life. But hey when baby sweet pea says the there is enough food  in the belly, I don’t argue anymore. See I do learn my lessons , eventually. With being able to eat that means that I finally get to put on some weight. Which is good when you are pregnant and  been losing weight. While I am being aware of my pregnancy gains I know what my body has done in the past with the boys and I just watch the food I eat and the weight will do what it will. I’m able to eat more food that are considered healthy so that is a huge bonus. Most of the food aversions seem to have left which makes eating and making dinner so much easier.

my tiger stripes

Now my belly has been growing even with the weight loss. So the stretching is happening. You think with this being the fourth baby that my body would be as stretched as it is going to get. Wrong! this one seem to be loving the sideways stretch hips butt and belly are where all the weight is going. So maternity clothes still suck ass because they just don’t seem to fit me. Though as much as I hate laundry I really dislike the idea of the rest of the world seeing me naked, so we make do with clothes when we go out. Then there is a lot of comfy pants and t-shirt at home. You know  what is also driving my bonkers this pregnancy, my BRA! It is an evil contraption that hates my breasts. I’m sure of it. I figure it will have to be replaced because we are just not getting along any more. The moment I get home I can’t get upstairs to take it off fast enough. It only  gets worn when I have to leave the house and see people. I have a thing , it’s odd, but I feel uncomfortable around other people without a bra on. Totally my own personal special issue.

Well here we are at 25 weeks. and while I’m still expecting to have this little sweet pea a week early, we are getting to the final countdown. The stuff that needs to get done in the next few weeks keeps growing. Clean the garage out so the van can go in, which involves a fair amount of purging crap, um… junk, er.. our lovely possessions that we no longer have use for our even know why we have. Cleaning and  er… finding the baby clothes ( which are in the garage with the rest of the stuff, from our move a year ago. * shame* ) Prepping for Christmas and all that come with that, food , gifts, decorations, parties, gatherings and what not. We need to get any birth supplies we need so that we are prepared and not caught off guard. So time is ticking and stuff need to get done. Wish me luck. Let hope for some energy in the third trimester so we can get it all done on top of the regular day to day stuff, of being a homeschooling mom and housewife.

A Curriculum Conundrum

One of the most common conversations I see with a lot of home learning families is what programs and curriculum are they using this year. This conversation often creates a lot of discussion and some tension. See curriculum is expensive, often for something that doesn’t always get used or you child doesn’t blend well with it.

Often you will end up with stack and stacks of stuff that gathers dust. Most other home learning families struggle every year with what they will have to supplement their child’s interest. Do we need more stuff? Do we get the next level or finish the level we have even though the child knows all the concepts? What to do with all the half used stuff that just sits on the shelves.

I’m pretty sure just about every home learning family has at least a bookshelf or to filled with stuff that is currently not being used, maybe more than one. 😉

So that is why this year, I’m stuck. My school requires the funding that we get to be used on curriculum, at least partially. The issues is there really isn’t stuff we need. With so much online and in the library why do we need to buy more junk, I mean wonderful learning materials, that are used for the year and then not needed? Or work books that are so redundant and repetitive that no one actually wants to use the whole thing? Or textbooks that really don’t give you the whole story or accurate information?

The answer is I don’t. I much rather teach my children to use resources and have memberships to the different centers in the area. We are fortunate enough to live just outside of a big metropolis area that has wonderful science centers, cultural resources and a large amount of home learners. The resources are almost endless  and they don’t need to come from a textbooks. Heck it’s better if it doesn’t. Real books, real experiences, real life is where learning truly comes from. It’s one of the reasons we have kept the children home. We know their learning is much more.

Do you use curriculum? Why or why not?

Another year of NOT going to school

Today is the first day back to school for many children in my area. With living kiddie corner from a school we see the daily activity, the coming and going of a hundred or so of little children.  My Facebook has been covered with first day of school pictures and most of them look completely adorable.Wearing new clothes with a new haircut, ready to head off on a new adventure.
My boys looked nothing like that today.

They are clothed in the same old clothes. Well the older two are , lil is rejecting clothes today ( he had at least a shirt on earlier ) There are no new back packs or pencils. There honestly is nothing new or special about today. They have watched a bit of TV, played lego and read some books. Later they will have lunch and do something that interests them.  Later this week we will get together with some other home learners and have a picnic in the park. The children will play and run and laugh.
Sure this year will be different Damian is in Grade 2 and Ainsley is in kindergarten. Which pretty much means I have doubled my reporting workload but that is about it for change. We will continue our daily lives in a fairly relaxed fashion and life will go on.

Banana Chocolate Chip Muffins with Coconut flour

Banana Chocolate Chip Muffins with Coconut Flour

Since I have been pregnant it is no secret that I have been sick sick sick. I recently sat down and looked at the nutritional needs for pregnancy, and I realized no matter how much I tried I was failing miserably. So I decided to make a muffin jam packed with goodness. Lots of good fats and omegas in these yummy little muffins.

I made a dozen this is the last one

1/2 cup organic butter
1/4 cup Maple Syrup
1/4 cup raw unpasteurized Honey
2-3 RIPE Bananas
3 free range farm eggs
3 tbsp Coconut Flour
1 1/2 tbsp Chia seeds
3 tsp Flax seeds
2 tsp Baking soda
1/4 cup Chocolate chips ( optional )
1/4 cup Crushed walnuts (optional )

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line a muffin tin with liners. ( trust me you need to have these or your muffins will stick) Blend butter, maple syrup, honey and bananas together till well mixed. Add eggs, chia seed and flax. Blend in coconut flour and baking soda. Mix till a nice consistency is formed, does not have to be completely smooth, mine was a bit lumpy. Add chocolate chip and/ or walnuts if you feel so inclined.  I used a 1/4 cup to dish the muffins into the lined tray and they filled up perfectly. Put in over for 15-20 minutes, check for readiness but using the toothpick check. Yields 12 muffins

* please note when they first come out until the y are completely cooled they seemed a bit greasy. I took them out and placed them on paper towel and once they were cool there was no greasiness left