I am my own worst enemy when it come to dealing with that little voice in my head. You know the one.
“You can’t do this”
“It’s too hard”
“You’ll always be a size 10 or higher”
“You have no willpower”
I know it is all in my head. I know I can conquer this. I also know that I might need some help. It is a hard thing to admit for some. Now with my weight-loss goals on hold, I just need to keep the gain in check. Which means continuing exercise and watching the intake of food. I need to not let the cravings and lack of desire to eat to not take over.
I know I create most of my failure. I’m scared to get out of my comfort zone. I am afraid to succeed at things sometimes because then next time I will have to do even better. I have a view in my head and it is someone who is not me. It’s not even my body type which makes my goals often completely unrealistic.
I also wonder what the point really is in this time of my life. What is the point of killing myself to lose weight when it will all come back once I get pregnant again? Well there is a point and I know it , I need to be healthy. not skinny, healthy! But knowing and doing is very different.
I need to keep working, I need to keep moving forward. I need to get out of my head.